James Choung is InterVarsity’s Director of Evangelism and he’s a blogger. He recently posted about “A Stupid Prayer” that he prayed at the beginning of a new church plant. He prayed for “God to build something that wouldn’t be credited to the talents of the people in the room.” and for Him “to do something that could only be explained by his presence with us, that would be impossible to do without God.”
A simple and, in many ways, typical pastor’s prayer. But James wasn’t prepared for that prayer to be answered so fully and vividly in the year to come. God lead him to an avalanche of new responsibilities, both personal and in his ministry, where “everything feels impossible,” and he found himself “trying to manage it all, to keep them small and manageable.” And thinking, “some would say that’s wisdom. I can tell you that, for me, it’s laced with fear.”
That made me think about the prayer I pray with my sons. A prayer that asks for Bravery, and so in effect also asks for Fear. And I’m thinking of Pranny and her first year in campus ministry, planting a brand-new ministry on the Cal Poly campus. I recognize that, in God’s ways, fear-doubt-impossibility are often the most telling signs that we are on the right path.
It seems that since the dawn of time, the missions of His people have been marked by these dark imprints. Signs that it’s we that are small and He that is big.
And that’s how James concludes his thoughts, that “in the end, I now have more faith that the rest of the prayer will be answered — that God would build something that could only be explained because He was with us.”
James Choung blogs at: http://www.jameschoung.net/blog/